ready, ready, ready to run

great running shoes. CHECK
quite colorful moisure wicking tops. CHECK
healed achilles tendon strain. CHECK
cute soft shell warm up jacket. CHECK
spandex running pants and shorts. CHECK
comfy socks. CHECK
cute shorts and pants for over the spandex. CHECK

the bank account hurts a little, but I hope to make it all worth it :]

my 30 day intro to becoming a runner starts sometime this week, on my first day off.

ready, set, go!

we are under contract!

After many weeks of being in negotiations and crazyness, we are finally under contract for the house!!!!!!!!!!!!

We settled with 2215 Parliament, see the previous blog with pictures :]

We love it! It needs some TLC, and appliances, but we hope to use our stocks to help us get us into a house that will be a great home, and produce great equity when we are ready to move.

Our closing date it March 31st.

We have already signed the contract paperwork and many of the loan documents, and the inspection is next week. Hopefully the house isn't falling down the side of the city or something :]

It has been quite stressful as all of these things have happened suddenly and all with deadlines, but writing this blog has got me excited about it again!

SO, save the first couple weeks of april because we need painters and movers! Food and drinks for any and all who want to help :] We plan to take the whole month of April to paint, clean or replace the carpet, and do other fix up things around the new home, and to move.

Yay!

our army boys

are you excited to go to work?

This week I have been having difficulty getting exciting to go to work, being excited while at work, and over all, doubting being a nurse.

I can't decide if this is just in context of all the other stressors in my life and my want to be home taking care of things, or if it's because I have to go to work the days Tony is off and I want to stay home with him.

Or if it is what I dread, that I hate being a nurse.

I long for the times when the most stressful part of my job was making a dinner start on time- though I would not want that to be my career.

I dream about a desk job with no ties to saving lives or destroying them with my direct actions.

I think about never working again (then I freak out about the financial reprecussions)

Or working part time somewhere "easy"

And I fear that I don't want to be a nurse and that is why I dread going to work.

But perhaps it is just a phase and it too shall pass.

Perhaps.

Until then I pray and fake it until I make it here.

And try to remember why I became a nurse, and find comfort in my paycheck at least.

I wonder daily whether other people all feel this way about their job. Or if it's wrong to feel like calling in sick every day.

You hear about the drone of work and making yourself go- should it really be this way?

Are you excited to go to work everyday?

Because I find many times I am not.

a goal. a dream.

i want to be a runner

where to start?

good shoes

good clothes

a dog that knows how to run along side me

and mostly. MOTIVATION.

i want to run. feel the wind in my hair, take gasping breaths and push on. run to push away everything else in my mind.

i dream about running and how wonderful it is.

i'm trying to make it a reality.

and am accepting donations to help make that happen.

i should set a date i suppose to start this new goal, but yet, with so much going on, there seems no time.

i will reflect on this and hope to move forward soon.

hm...

i just spent some time hitting "next blog" after viewing my blog. it was quite interesting.

here is a sampling:
apiring writers
families sharing pictures
new families
ranting teens
ranting adults
reflective artists

and overall, a lot of uniqueness

an interesting adventure to say the least

house shopping

is rather difficult!!!!!!!!!!! (and seems all consuming)

i somehow just want to know that this exact house is the perfect one and this exact time for this amount of money.

yet i doubt. will a better one come on the market in a few weeks? will we regret putting an offer in on this house? will we spend too much?

ACK!

but it's ok

i do really enjoy this house though :]

so does tony.

but is it the exact right one?

should i wait for a sign? or rest on logic? or just wait it out?

who knows.

i will pray about it though.

2215 Parliament DR

(behind the chapel hills mall)

front of house

eat in kitchen bay window

kitchen- needs fridge, but has new stove and dishwasher

family room with great fireplace and built ins

back yard

park DIRECTLY across the street :]